Something Old, Something New, Something Borrowed, Something Blue

This month Princess Victoria of Sweden got married, and Stockholm was all about the wedding. Everywhere you go there are boxes of chocolates, plates, books, napkins, and anything you can imagine with Victoria and Daniel.

Wedding or not, I was just happy that I got to be in Sweden again. I got to be at the cabin with the whole family, play cards with Mormor and Morfar and Milja in the evening, sleep in the room where I always sleep in, and eat everything Mormor cooked.

After the bad experience that Milja and I had trying to get to the Eindhoven airport the last time we went to Sweden, we decided to fly with KLM this time. Within two hours of boarding and without any problems, Milja and I landed in Stockholm. It's that easy!

This time we were going to be in Sweden for six full days, and even though that's a day longer than we were there over December, the time flew by. The day that we got to Stockholm, we spent the night at Mormor and Morfar's house in Spanga, and the next morning I got to eat breakfast in Sweden again.

Why I love Breakfast in Sweden:

• Yogurt and musli is so good.
  
• Morfar always slices pepperoni, and we eat half of it before we've even sat down with everyone.


• There's that thick honey from Lapland that you just want to eat out of the jar with a spoon- like Ben and Jerry's.


• Kalle's caviar is always on the table. Even if I don't want to eat it, I like knowing it's there IF I want to eat it.


• The second my glass of orange juice is empty or I don't have any coffee left, someone fills it up for me.


• Mormor's bathrobe with Chinese dragons on it.


• How Morfar always slices the cheese in the most impractical way ever.

I could go on for a while...

Once we'd eaten breakfast that first day, we loaded up the car with all of the food, baked goods, drinks, towels, clothes, and books we needed and drove to "landet"- my grandparents cabin about an hour outside of Stockholm. Ever since I was little, whenever we came to Sweden in the summer, and sometimes in the winter we'd go to the cabin. My mom and her siblings have been going there with Mormor and Morfar since they were little. I love "landet" just as much as I love eating breakfast in Sweden (maybe even more). It's not that there's anything all that special about the house. It's this small yellow house with a concrete foundation and concrete steps leading up to it. Before we got there I told Milja this whole story about how incredibly steep and huge the steps were, but when we were there I realized they weren't as steep or as huge as I'd remembered. Apparently I've grown. But even though it's not a mansion and you can see concrete on the outside, it's a pretty house, and it's at the bottom of a huge green hill. When you walk inside and open the door this smell comes rushing at you, and it's the "landet" smell. Whenever I walk in there I remember all of these things from when I was little that really aren't important at all: The one time Anna got mad at me for eating a sugar cube, fighting with my cousin Sandra about the playhouse, running around naked for the whole day.

This time when we were at "landet" I spent my time a little bit differently than running around naked. I went running right away. I don't know if the air was fresher, or warmer, or if my legs were just happy to be somewhere so familiar, but it was one of those really good runs where you get sweaty and exhausted and you feel super strong.

When I got back from running my aunts were just coming with their families. That day was just like all the other days I remember at "landet." My cousins were running around outside, Mormor was running up and down the stairs between the kitchen and the table outside taking care of food, Morfar was working in the garden, Anna and Karin were trying to relax. This time, Milja was there too- in the garden, fitting right into the picture.

We were only at "landet" for two days: Saturday and Sunday. Both days I got to run, we walked through the churchyard where we always walk in the evenings, we ate rhubarb pie, slept late, had to go down the basement stairs to get to the bathroom, drank "saft" and ate cookies that Mormor had made. On the second day after I went running, I ran and jumped in the lake before I could chicken out. It was so cold, and so nice... another thing that was just like I remember it.

It's weird, because I'm seventeen. It's not like I long for my childhood or anything. I'm still in my childhood. But sometimes I wish I could go back to some of those moments at "landet" or in Sweden; moments when I was scarfing down Swedish candy with mom, stealing food from Mormor while she was cooking, and drinking coffee with Morfar early in the morning. The last few times I was in Sweden, it felt a little like I got to relive them, almost like they were before, but this time maybe even a little bit better.

Milja and I could have stayed at "landet" forever, but Sunday afternoon we had to pack up the car again and leave. We ate dinner at Anna's house, and I got to see Frida and Linn for the last time until October when they'll come to Spooner. On Monday, Milja and I went into Stockholm together and did our best to find some sort of exciting event from "Love Week," since the princess was getting married. We didn't have very much luck, but Stockholm was nice like it always is. Later in the afternoon Milja went on a boat tour and I got to spend a few short hours with Johanna. We'd planned on going into Stockholm again on Tuesday, but we were out-shopped, felt a little bit like we'd seen what we wanted to see, and I didn't feel like going that far away from Mormor and Morfar. So we stayed in the area. On Wednesday we had to leave. This time it was a little bit harder leaving than around Christmas. I know that in a few weeks I'll be much further away from Sweden than I've been this entire year, and I don't know when I get to go back. I guess I'll just have to make sure it's not very long before I do.

Something Old: Mormor and Morfar (old but loved)

Something New: Milja (new in my life... until she's been in my life for a long time)

Something Borrowed: the shorts I borrowed from a teammate in Portugal and wore in Sweden (I know, I know. But SOMETHING had to be the borrowed thing).

Something Blue: leaving Europe soon, "landet" being sold (but they'll be new trips to Europe and there's other places with smells that make me remember things)

Breaking Records

As hard as I've been trying I'm still not getting anywhere close to breaking the Spooner High School 1600m record of 5:13. But on Saturday, I did set a personal record and also, I think, a Spooner High School record.
Personal Record: Fastest 1500m time ever run in Belgium.
Spooner High School Record #1: Fastest 1500m time ever run in Belgium. (To be honest I'm not one hundred percent sure on this one, but I think it's a pretty safe bet).
Impressive isn't it? I have to say that I feel after working so long towards this goal, I definitely deserved to finally reach it.

I must be getting a little spoiled by living in this tiny country, because I found the three hours it took us to drive to Duffel, Belgium kind of a drag. It felt like a long time to sit in the car. To think that I regularly ride that far just to go to Mall of America... Plus, once we were almost there, one of the other girls from our team called and said that they were completely stuck in a huge traffic jam. So then we had to turn around and go back to the Netherlands and then drive back into Belgium with a different road. It's not a stereotype that the roads in Belgium are worse than the roads in the Netherlands. I never got a chance to find out if the stereotypes about Belgium people that Dutch people have are true. Except how they talk- they do sound funny when they talk.
My first thought when we walked into the track at Duffel was that the track was huge. Seriously, it looked way bigger than any other track that I've seen before. Of course that's not possible because every track is 400 meters and 400m is 400m- even in Belgium.
Since we were about two hours early for the 1500m race, I had about an hour when I got to sit and watch the other races all nervously and not do anything else. Then all of us who were going to run the 1500m warmed up together. There were three series of about 20 girls. That's 60 girls who were going to run the 1500m. I was in the third serie, which I wasn't complaining about, I really don't feel like it's neccessary for me to race against girls who run a 4:30 1500m time. The start was brutal though. Everyone pushed and shoved and we were stuck in this huge mob of girls that took about a lap and a half to get unclogged. The pace was still fast, but it was stressful having to watch out for everyone else.
In the end I ran the same time that I ran in the last 1500m race I did. I was disappointed because after the first race I thought for sure that I could run much faster. It had felt faster too because I managed to pick up the pace in the last 300m much more than I usually can.
As happy as I am with my "fastest race ever in Belgium," I would have been happier with a plain old "fastest race ever," considering that was the only race I've ever run in Belgium. But hey, there are still more races before I go home and many years of running to come.

The Lilacs Bloom Here in May Too

Technically I turned seventeen on Friday, May 21'st. But we had decided to celebrate it the Sunday afterwards because then the whole family could come, and I could have the Dutch birthday party that I've been waiting for all year.

Sunday was one of the first really warm days. As usual on Sunday, I had running practice in the dunes. It was already warm when we started training and the dunes were full of people running, mountain biking, and walking with the whole family. Our training was a fartlek run, and it was one of those perfect runs where you feel like you'll never need to stop. I was in such a good mood after running, and the weather was so nice, that I even put on a dress after I took a shower.

Milja's younger sister Connie and her family had spent the night before in a house across the street from us that's being rented out as a sort of bed and breakfast (very handy for when I come back here with all of the hundred people I want to show the Netherlands too). This meant that we already had a group of people sitting in the garden from about noon. We were spread out in the sun, completely relaxed, sometimes talking and sometimes not. Milja had decorated the garden with balloons and banners, and there were lilac bushes everywhere. I felt so much like it was my birthday. The weather was completely perfect that when it was time to walk Misha we went together to the lake where I usually run. Of course Misha got tired after about 20 minutes or so and then Milja had to carry her.
Around 3:00 everyone else from the family came and we ate cake in the garden. We ate the classical Dutch birthday cake, which is called a whipped cream cake, and had a picture of me printed on it. Milja's nephew, Matthijs, had made a sort of white sugar cake with marsipan frosting that we ate for dessert. Plus he'd made a smaller one that we'd eaten the night before. If birthday cakes were money I would be so rich.

Aren't they beautiful?

Everyone drank tea with the cake, and we sat outside for another couple of hours. Didn't I tell you? This is how it works at all of the Dutch birthday parties. We sit for hours and talk and drink. By drinking, I don't mean getting drunk. Mostly people drink tea, coffee, or juice, and once in a while a glass of wine. As soon as you've emptied a glass someone comes and fills another one. I spent the whole afternoon opening presents too. From Milja I got this fresh, springy perfume from Lancome. From Peter I got Bjorn Borg underwear (which I'd asked for, since I can't ever bring myself to buy underwear for that much), one that was "Dutch" and the other one that was "American." Very patriotic. From Adrienne- Milja's niece- I got a necklace. From Marja, Erik, and Inge I got an orange shirt (orange is Holland's official color) for the world soccer championships that are starting soon. From Connie and her family I got a little bright colored bag. From Anita I got a little wooden house from Swahili where her parents live. From Opa and Oma I got "De Hel van '63," the first movie I watched in Dutch without subtitles. And from lots of people I got money.

In the invitation I'd sent out to everyone I'd written that they had to bring walking shoes so we could go for a walk in the afternoon. After eating cake, we all got in the car and drove to a bird sanctuary on the outskirts of Akersloot. We didn't walk very far, but we looked at all of the birds, and then there turned out to be some cows too, so we climbed over the fence and tried to pet them and feed them grass, though they weren't brave enough to come very close.

When we got back to the house everyone sat down outside again and we brought another round of drinks and more food. By the time everyone was completely and totally full from all of the cheese, sausage, and chips that had been sitting on the table, we brought out soup and sandwiches on french bread with mozzarella and tomatoes. As if that wasn't enough, we had the cake from Matthijs for dessert and ice cream with it.

After dinner there was tea again, and more wine, and we sat outside until eleven o'clock around a campfire. Actually it wasn't really a campfire- we were sitting around three metal baskets with fire in them, that everyone uses here for parties. I'm not sure if there's a name for that in English? At some point when the sun started going down we'd moved around to the other side of the house. Then we could talk to all of the neighbors and wave to all of the people who walked by. There was a big group who walked by that turned out to be having a family reunion and they were so happy when they walked by and saw the whole "familie Clazing."

Maybe the Dutch birthday parties don't sound like much. I just realized that what I thought was so much to write about ended up being nothing once I'd typed it all out. Maybe because we didn't really "do" anything... But that's what's so nice. Sometimes it's nice not to have to do anything for a day, to be able to sit with the whole family, and eat, and talk, and laugh. I like listening to the story that I've already heard from Oma three times and that the rest of the family has heard a hundred times. I like watching Marja laugh hysterically and see Adrienne get embarrassed about it. I like sitting outside and being with so many people and feeling like I belong there. That's what makes the Dutch birthday parties- and my birthday party- so nice: that it's just about being together and not about "doing" anything.

Sunday wasn't the only birthday party I had. Since Monday was another school holiday (2nd Pinkster Day- I doubt that rings any bells), I gave a brunch at our house for my friends from school. Milja and I had done grocery shopping together and bought all sorts of bread, cheese, meat, chocolate spread, hagleslag, orange juice, and tea. Monday morning was a little bit colder than the day before, so we set the table inside instead of outside. There were five girls who came, all friends from my class at school. Once they were all here we sat for a long time and ate and they gave me the present from all of them which was that I get to pick out a purse. They all know how much I love the bag fashion here. The weather started getting nicer and we moved outside to the backyard where we could sit out of the wind. There was all sorts of pop and juice on the table, and after a while I brought out the cake (#4 from the weekend) which was another sort of whipped cream cake but with marsipan over the top. It was as close as anything to the Swedish princess cake that I love.

A little bit later in the afternoon Milja drove us to the movie theater in Alkmaar and we saw "Date Movie." I hadn't heard anything about it all, but one of the other girls had wanted to see it and it turned out to be good (after Evan Almighty I can't help but love how funny/cheesy that actor is). Everyone got picked up from the movie theater. Even though Monday was a laid back party, I was completely exhausted when I got home and so were Milja and Taiana. Watching America's next top model, eating Chinese take out for dinner, and going to bed early was the perfect end to the weekend.

Sixteen Going on Seventeen

If you're a student in 4HAVO at Jac P. Thijsse College, like I happen to be, then there are three days towards the end of the year when you have to do a "snuffelstage." This translates to something like "sniffing internship." This "sniffing internship" is three days long and you're supposed to do it by a company or a business that does the same kind of work you're interested in doing and studying once you've graduated from high school. Since I've wanted to do something in writing since I was about ten and stopped wanting to be a veterinarian (every child has their veterinarian phase) I figured right away that I would try to do my internship at a magazine or a newspaper.
When Milja heard that I had to do an internship she started helping me right away and asking everyone she knew if they had any connections with a magazine or a newspaper. There were a lot of places who didn't have time, or didn't respond at all, and she also found a few which I shot down fairly quickly. Finally, Milja's brother-in-law Eric found someone at the magazine "Bovag Krant" who was willing to have me come there for two days. At first I hesitated a little bit because the "Bovag Krant" is a magazine written about cars/transportation for people who work in the automotive industry. Still, it ended up being the "Bovag Krant." I went there for the first day on Wednesday, and I had to take the train to one of the earlier Amsterdam stations, then step onto another train, and then walk five minutes or so to get to the office building. The office from the "Bovag Krant" is right next to the World Fashion Center.
I'm hoping everyone who just read that is thinking impressed to themselves, "Oh wow, the World Fashion Center," without really knowing what the World Fashion Center is. Because that's what I did. "World Fashion Center" sounds extremely impressive and looks extremely impressive, but I'm doubting whether it's actually internationally important or not. Since I was about 40 minutes early the first day of my snuffelstage I wanted to go in and see what it was, because to me it looked like I huge shopping mall. Except then there were these huge and scary revolving doors and a reception desk with security guards sitting at it, and there wasn't anybody else inside. So basically I just went 360 degrees through the revolving doors and walked away really fast again. The thing is- I still don't know what the World Fashion Center is.
After my short experience in the World Fashion Center, I was still 38 minutes early, so I sat and drank coffee at this coffee shop with all sorts of organic juices, and carrot muffins, and that sort of thing.
When it was finally time to go inside, it took me a while to figure out that I had to buzz myself in before the revolving doors would turn (I HATE revolving doors) but eventually that worked out and I went up to the seventh floor and introduced myself to the secretary. One of the journalists came and got me and gave me a tour around the building, because the director of the magazine wasn't there yet. When he came, he gave me a huge stack of all of the different magazines that their company makes (lots of other publications about cars and also about restaurants) and I spetn a few hours reading. Generally I wouldn't be too thrilled to spend hours reading about the automotive industry, but there was such a professional atmosphere in the office with the journalists making phone calls and typing away at their computers that I actually managed to get through a pretty big stack. For lunch at the office they had a whole big table set with all sorts of bread and things that Dutch people put on their bread (that's a story for another day) where they can eat every day. In the afternoon I got a little bit more of a description about everything they do at the office, who does what, and how it finally ends up getting published.
Thursday morning I took the train a little bit earlier than the day before, and got to sit in at a team meeting they were having. Basically the team meeting was two and a half hours long of a fairly heated discussion. This was probably the most interesting thing I saw in the two days I was there, because I've never thought about you have to work together at magazine. I've always just thougth about it as people writing their own articles and discussing with the editor, but at the Bovag Krant they had all sorts of things to discuss about how the magazine works and etc. In the afternoon on Thursday I got a little bit more of a detailed tour, and left pretty early in the because everyone had meetings they had to get too.

As far as how you could spend your last two days EVER being sixteen, the two days at the Bovag Krant were pretty good. And the next day was Friday... all of a sudden I wasn't sixteen anymore.
Since the rest of my class has to do their internships for three days, I didn't have any school on Friday. For Milja it was just a normal work day, and she offered to take off of work, but I had a 1500m race on Friday evening, so I didn't want to spend the day doing anything active, so I thought it was kind of pointless for her to take the whole day off.
Even though we weren't officially celebrating my birthday on Friday, it was a good day. When I woke up Taiana was at school, because she's had final exams for the last two weeks. I ate breakfast, read all the e-mails and cards I'd gotten, and laid on the couch watching a movie because I didn't HAVE to do anything. When Taiana got home the weather was warm, and she went to the store and bought strawberries. Then Milja came home early anyway, even though she wasn't supposed to, and Opa came over too, and a friend of Taiana's. We spent the whole afternoon sitting outside in the sun. My mom called, and Brooke called too, which I totally hadn't been expecting and was such a nice surprise.
Early evening I left with Milja and Opa for my first 1500m track race. It was a pretty small race, there weren't that many girls in teh 1500m, and I was the only one in JuniorenB, which does mean that I won. I was nervous before I raced, but not as crazy nervous as I had been before the 800m race, and I ran much better too. I'd forgotten how nice running the mile (or 1500m) can feel. It was a good birthday race.
After the race I went to a friend's house where I spent the night, and on Saturday morning I biked home, and Milja and I bought groceries for the rest of the weekend, which was going to be quite the production.

Hitting the Ground Running

After we got back from Portugal, I didn't have very much of a chance to sink into that after-vacation-depression that always happens. Even though there was a cloud of volcanic ash hanging over Portugal, we managed to get home on Monday afternoon like we'd planned. The night before there had been a lot of discussion about what we were going to do "if" the plane didn't fly, but no one had any good solutions, so it's a good thing we were able to get home. Milja picked me up from the airport on Monday afternoon and I spent the rest of the afternoon unpacking, checking my e-mail, and being completely exhausted, since we'd gotten up at 3:00 a.m. the night before to leave.
On Tuesday morning I was out of bed early again. Milja and I left at 6:30 to take a train to Maastricht for the Maastricht University College experience day that I'd signed up for a few months before. Sitting in the train for three hours on the way to Maastricht, I had my few hours of after-vacation-depression. I was still exhausted because sleeping until 6:30 in the morning didn't do much to help me catch up on the sleep I'd missed the night before. Plus it was gray and freezing cold, and we were sitting in a dirty, empty train.
Maastricht is close to Belgium. Belgium has lots of chocolate. And so, logically, does Maastricht. I've inherited Grandpa Don's love for chocolate, so seeing all the windows full of chocolate helped make me feel better immediately. Besides the chocolate shops there were bakeries, which I've really grown to love this year. It didn't take long before being around the chocolate and the bread, and walking through the streets in Maastricht drove my after-vacation-depression away. It wasn't just the stores that made me happy- right when we walked out of the train station I could tell the city was beautiful. We had to cross a bridge and after walking past more stores with chocolate and bread, we walked through much older streets full of churches and cobbelstone roads. There were cafes with terraces everywhere and little boutiques with expensive looking shoes and clothes. As we got closer to the university I started to get the "college city" feeling. There were students biking and walking everywhere with backpacks full of books, listening to their iPods, and talking on their phones. We were completely surrounded by buildings that belonged to the university- all old and beautiful.

I would say that there were a total of about 40 students at the experience day, probably half of which were German and the other half Dutch. I was immediately interesting because my English was so good (University College Maastricht is taught in English) and everyone wanted to talk to me and know what I was doing at the experience day and how my year here has been. I could tell right away that it was a different group of students than the one I'm used to being around at school.
We spent the first half of the day listening to a talk about schedules, what kind of classes you can take and how they're divided, what the college looks like, and what sorts of jobs and housing are available in the area. Then there was a lunch and in the afternoon we were split into groups to try the "Problem Based Learning" method that they teach at UCM. The "Problem Based Learning" method is based on students having only two subjects per quarter and only about ten to twelve hours of class every week. Out of those class hours, only four of the hours are lecture hours. For every subject you start the week with a lecture from the professor, then you have a discussion about the topic with a small group of students, leave and do research by yourself, have another discussion, and then end the week with another lecture from the professor. What you learn through "Problem Based Learning" then has to be applied to a paper, an exam, etc. At the experience day we had a discussion about whether or not abortion should be allowed for selecting what kind of child a couple wants to have. The practice Problem Based Learning didn't work exactly like it was supposed to, but I did get the idea that I would be able to learn a lot that way.
At the end of the day I couldn't help it- I was picturing myself at school in Maastricht, living in an apartment there, working at one of the cafes in the city, buying bread and chocolate in the stores there.

Wednesday was quite the day for me, because I mustered up all my strength and went to school for a few hours. What a big step... Two and a half weeks is pretty long time not to go to school, and to be honest, after Wednesday it took a while before I went back again. Now that the weather's nice and there's less than two months left of school, there are all sorts of holidays and days when we don't have to go to school like usual.

Thursday was Hemelvaard Dag. I'm not really sure what kind of holdiay that is, but it meant that we didn't have school Thursday or Friday. Thursday afternoon I had my first race of the track season, and my first race after Portugal. Originally I was going to run a 3000m race, but the coaches had decided that I should try 800m to work on my speed. Wednesday night and Thursday morning I managed to get myself incredibly worked up. An hour before we had to leave for the race, I was so nervous that my hands were shaking. Because it was the first race after Portugal I put all of this pressure on myself to run really well. The results ended up being just okay, which I was disappointed in. I ran a faster 800m time than I ever have before, but not by as many seconds as I had expected. Plus, I'd forgotten how hard it is to race 800m. You're uncomfortable the entire time that you're running- it's like one long tortorous sprint. I don't deny though, that it probably was good for me.

Again, I didn't have time to wallow in the fact that the 800m didn't go exactly how I wanted it to go, because right after I'd cooled down from the race, Milja and I went to pick Antea up at the train station. When I went to Texel a month or so before, Antea and I had decided that she would come to Akersloot for Hemelvaard, because after that we couldn't think of a time when we'd be able to spend a weekend together again. There was a minor incident where Milja got a cramp in her toe and had to pull over on the side of the road for ten minutes, but besides that we managed to bring Antea back to Akersloot without any problems. We didn't do all that much on Thursday night: drank tea, looked at pictures from Portugal, walked on the beach with Misha (the puppy), and watched a movie on t.v.

Friday morning I had to bring my bike to the bike shop to get fixed. It wasn't really broken, but I'd somehow ended up with a flat tire, and since I didn't want to walk an hour back home, I'd ridden my bike anyway. Apparently that wasn't a very good idea, but nothing the bike mechanics in Akersloot can't take care of. Once we'd dropped my bike off Antea and I took the bus and then the train into Amsterdam. On one hand, it was beautiful there because for the first time since September or so the sun was shining and it was warm. On the other hand, the garbage workers in Amsterdam were on strike, and there was garbage everywhere. It was disgusting. We didn't want to sit down on any benches, or stand in the square because everywhere you looked there were piles and piles of garbage. Even the side streets had canals and apartments overflowing with garbage.
Instead of going shopping right away like we usually do when we're in Amsterdam, Antea and I had decided to go the Albert Cuyp market which is a market that they have every day in Amsterdam. It took us about half an hour (and a few added minutes of being lost) before we got there, but all the walking ended up being worth it. I know I should probably stop, because I always bring it up- but walking through the market was another "Europy" moment. Everything was super cheap, and a lot of it was completely worthless too, but it was fun to look at. We walked through the food part of the market more than once because there was so much to look at: nuts, chocolate, fruit, vegetables, fish, Turkish food, Vietnamese food, stroopwaffels, ice cream, and fresh smoothies.
When we'd seen everything there was to see at the Albert Cuyp market we'd had enough walking, so we took the tram back to the street by the Dam where you can shop (I always think of Dad when I see or ride a tram because I remember him warning me more than once about how fast and silent they are: a.k.a. deadly). Our attempt at shopping was pretty weak, because both of us were exhausted from walking around the market all morning. Instead we ended up spending most of our time in this store called "Rituals" with all these expensive lotions and creams that smell really good. I don't know how we made the connection between lotion and living in Amsterdam, but we ended up talking about what it would be like if we were both going to college here, and all the things we would put in our apartment (expensive lotions included- forget the fact that we would be dirt poor).
Around six o'clock we were ready to find someplace to eat, and we dragged ourselves all the way to the Leidseplein for dinner. Ever since I went with Milja and Anita to watch flamenco dancing on the Leidseplein I've been wanting to go out to eat there, because the atmosphere is so gezellig." It's the perfect mix of tourists and Dutch people. You don't feel like you're in a trap of people taking pictures and trying to see everything in five minutes, but you can still enjoy being around everyone speaking different languages and sitting on the terraces.
Way earlier in the day Antea and I had decided that we wanted to eat foreign food for dinner. Walking up and down the long street with restaurants by the Leidseplein we had a lot to choose from. There was Turkish, Thai, Indian, Chinese, Japanase, Vietnamese, and Italian food everywhere. We finally picked a Chinese restaurant with lots of people inside and a medium priced menu. There's nothing like sitting down in a comfortable chair and being served good food after you've been walking around Amsterdam all day. We were so grateful to the waiter every time he brought us something, and we spent a good couple of hours sitting in the restuarant. When we were done it was only about 8:30, and we spent some more time walking around. There happened to be an H&M still open with way cooler clothes than all of the other H&M's we'd seen that day, which meant shopping a little bit more, and then eventually taking the train back to Uitgeest where Milja picked us up (whoops- it happened again) and brought us home.

The next morning was get up and go- again. I was out of bed at 7:30 to run, Antea had set her alarm clock and was just getting out of the shower when I got back, we ate a fast breakfast and were in the bus by 9:00. We'd bought online tickets for Madame Tussaud where both of us had been wanting to go all year. The reason we hadn't gone all year? Tickets were 20 euros and turned out not to be worth it. It is incredibly cool seeing all of the famous people almost in living flesh and blood (wax) but it only takes about an hour to see all of them and take your picture in various poses standing next to them. Add in the fact that there are mobs of tourists walking through all the pictures you're taking, pushing, and driving you absolutely crazy, and it totally wasn't worth the 20 euros. At least now our curiousity is satisfied.
Since we'd started out the day as tourists, Antea and I figured that we should just keep on going the way started, and bought tickets for a boat tour around Amsterdam. If you ever happen to be in Amsterdam, and then you happen to decide you want to go on a boat tour, then you're in luck. There are lots of companies that offer boat tours in Amsterdam. We picked a one hour boat ride for eight euros, and this time we weren't disappointed. Since we'd already spent the weekend in an "if" mood (if we went to school in Amsterdam, if we lived there) we added "if" we lived on a houseboat, or in a huge flat along the canal to the list. Even though we'd already walked by most of the places that we road by, or heard about the places, seeing them from the canals gave us a new perspective that made everything much more interesting and prettier than usual. We spent the whole ride enjoying how sunny it was and talking about "if's."
Antea and I had plans to meet Milja around 2:00 because Milja and I had tickets to see Sound of Music (yes the musical!) in Dutch and Antea had to go back to Texel. By the time we were done with our canal tour it was only about 12:00, so we sat on a terrace for a while and drank coffee. It was incredibly busy though, and there was still garbage lying around everywhere, so the atmosphere wasn't very nice. Eventually our legs were rested enough that we could get up and walk again, and we decided to walk to a shopping mall in this old church building that I had just noticed and was all of a sudden dying to go into. On our way to the old church/mall (which was about a block away) we came across this group of men in blue shirts, and one in a karate outfit. After they called us over to them, we found out that they were all at a bachelor's party and the man in the karate suit was the bridegroom. For his bachelor's party he had to have 2000 kilograms of women kiss him on the cheek. Before I got used to the whole Dutch-cheek-kissing thing, I never would have agreed to this, but now I'm a natural, so I stepped right up on the scale and gave him three kisses. We'd done our good deed for the day, and made it the rest of the way to the old church/mall without anything else exciting happening.
After we'd walked around the mall for about five minutes and gone to the bathroom there (it took a while for us to get in, because between the two of us we only had fifty cents, which meant we had to walk through the gate at the same time like we were one person- it might have looked a little weird) we went and sat at the Dam waiting for Milja. She found us there and took a picture, saying that we'd found the most touristic place to sit in all of Amsterdam.
This time it was extra sad saying goodbye to Antea, because we both knew that it was the last time we had to spend a weekend together before we have to go home.

The fact that we were going to see Sound of Music- the musical that I spent hours and hours watching over and over when I was little- made me feel better. Milja and I made it just in time, because it turned out to be further walking to the Theater Carre than we thought. The musical was good, and just the same as it would have been English- except it was in Dutch, even all of the songs. There was another thing I could cross off my to do list- seeing a musical.
We walked back to the central station again, and in the nice weather Amsterdam was so... alive. Everyone was outside sitting on the sidewalks, boating in the canals, ordrinking a glass of wine by a cafe.

Pictures of Portugal

I have a coach who trains us well and takes good pictures too... handy, isn't it?
www.picasaweb.google.nl/will.Conijn

Passion

Passion doesn't come in moments; it's always there and it never goes away. Passion is what has made this year so important for me, and what made Portugal such an experience. And passion is what is going to make it so hard for me to leave TDR in July.
When I first started running with TDR my goal was to make the most of ten months of training with them, improve a lot, and be able to perform for the cross-country and track season when I got back to Spooner. Of course I wanted to be able to keep up with the other runners and to feel like I belonged, but I never really thought it was a possibility. Over the last few months that's changed. I've gotten so caught up in the passion of the other athletes, of the coaches, and the passion I've gained, that I don't even want to imagine what it's going to be like to train without TDR again.
It's not honest to say that passion is the only reason I love TDR- it's not. I love how professional it is, that there's a website with a real slogan, that we're sponsored by Nike, that we warm up for an hour before starting the rest of the training, that we have to send training logs to our coach every week, that we train in the dunes on Sundays, and on the track Tuesdays and Thursdays. I could go on forever about everything that I love about TDR, and it doesn't all have to do with passion. Still, passion is a huge part of it, because it's what makes everything else possible. No one can train as much and as hard as the athletes from TDR do, or coach as much as the coaches do without passion.
At the end of the two weeks in Portugal we all sat down and talked about how we thought it went, what we'd learned, and what could have gone better. When the discussion was over, the coach from the other team asked which people from the youth team thought that they could make the step over to the other team within the next year. In that moment it hit me so hard how lucky I've been. The coaches all have the same goal as the athletes: to train runners who will eventually be strong enough and fast enough to run with the other team. But I don't fall under that category. We all know that I'll be leaving in July and then I'll be done with TDR, but the coaches still coach me like everyone else, give me just as much attention, and train me with just as much passion as they do all of the other athletes. I don't know how Milja found TDR or why the coaches let me start training with them. I don't really understand how it all began, but I know it's going to be incredibly hard to let it end.
The thing is, it's just starting now. Right now, I'm starting to run faster, to be able to train harder, and to feel like I belong. In Portugal, the practices weren't about not being left behind anymore. They were about running the right times for myself and focusing on real goals. Getting left behind didn't happen very often- I ran with the rest of the team, not behind them. Now, almost every practice goes better than the practice I had before, and over two months (less than two months) I have to leave. I love running more than I ever have before.

I'm doing my best to hold on to the "Portugal feeling." I don't ever want to forget what the days were like there; training, eating fresh bread on the balcony, napping every afternoon, training again. I'm not going to forget what it's like to be taken so seriously, to run up a hill and feel like you could do it ten more times, and to run on the track with so many strong athletes.
More than anything I hope that after I leave I can hold onto the passion I've gotten through this year: through all the races, all the practices, all the long coversations about running, the other athletes, the coaches, and through Portugal.

Perfection

Perfection moments are frequent. Performance moments are perfection moments and the moments that are incredibly far away from performance moments are perfection moments too. Every moment in Portugal was a perfection moment, every training here is a perfection moment, every time I train by myself, or think and talk about running is a perfection moment.

For me, the word "perfection" probably isn't the right word. Saying that I'm perfecting something makes it sound like what I'm doing is almost perfect, and that couldn't be further from the truth. Improving might be a better word, but since I'm sticking with the TDR slogan, "Passion, Perfection, Performance," this blog is still the perfection blog.

These are the things I've been perfecting this year, or some of them... everything needs perfection. And I have been perfecting everything. Even the things I'm still horrible at are much better than they were at the beginning of the year, and after Portugal they're better than they were before Portugal.


Farthest from Perfect:

• Jumping high. I've never been able to jump high, but it doesn't help that I'm afraid to try to jump high. I'm still the only one who has to jump next to the hurdles we're jumping over, and in front of the box we're supposed to jump on to.
• Sprinting. The joke that I'm going to be made into a sprinter never gets old.
• High knees. Whenever the sprint coach sees me run by he tells me to bring my knees up. At least to a 90 degree angle he says. And the whole time it felt like they were already at a 120 degree angle...
• Toes to my nose. There's this jumping exercise we do where we have to jump as high as we can using only the flexing movement of our toes. The thing is, every time we do this I automatically have to pee. Which makes it really hard to jump higher and higher. I'm going to blame the huge distance between my toes and my nose on my small bladder.
• Leaping. "Loopsprong" is what you say in Dutch. The other runners look so strong and fast when they do it, but it still hasn't really clicked for me.
• Elbows in. The more tired I get the further my elbows get from my body. It's a sad story.
• Underwater swimming. Don't even get me started.
  
  

Really Far From Perfect:

• 800m dash. The word "dash" says it all. The thing is, people who are really "dashers," like the athletes who run 100m and 200m dont' really like dashing for 800m. So people like me who don't think 800m is all that far have to try to run fast, and then 800m does seem far.
• Hill sprints. Hill sprints only get to be under the second worst category because they're better than my normal sprints. Sometimes I can get on my toes, sometimes I can get my knees up, and sometimes I can push through to the end.
• 80 second laps in an interval training. It's happened before- around 80 seconds, and it's way better than 90 second laps in an interval training.
• "Zweef Momenten." A zweef moment is when neither of your feet is touching the ground. There were a few flying moments in Portugal, and now I want more.
  

Still Pretty Far From Perfect:

• Skipping. If I focus really hard and think "tic, tic, tic" in my head, remember to keep my hips high, my feet quick, my head forward, my knees straight, then it works. Sometimes and for a few seconds.
• Mental strength. I don't give up right away anymore when I hear an impossible workout. Instead, I try to pretend it's not that impossible, and focus on the series: one at a time. Before you know it we're done- whether we ran the right times or not.
• Eating. If we look at every time I don't eat dessert, and every time I eat an apple instead of a cookie, or close the cupboard door when I see a bar of chocolate, then I'm doing pretty well. We'll keep it that way- focusing on what I AM passing up, and not what I'm not passing up.
• Drinking water. I'm a drinking professional. I can drink glass, after glass, after glass- as long as there's a bathroom somewhere in the area.
• Long runs by myself. If I feel good and the weather's nice, sometimes 45 minutes fly by and I can finish fast.
• Actually, long runs in general. If I don't have to go speed up, I can go for a long time.

Performance

In Portugal we woke up early every morning, trained and ate, or ate and then trained. We'd come back from training, buy fresh bread at the bakery, eat on the balcony, and then sleep for a few hours. Around 4:30 or so in the afternoon we would train again, eat dinner, sit around, maybe drink hot chocolate somewhere, and be in bed again by 10:00. The two weeks in Portugal were about running. I got to be a runner and I didn't have to be anything else. In Portugal I wasn't an exchange student who still wants to see all of the Netherlands, I wasn't a daughter who was away from home and wants constant contact with her friends and parents, I wasn't a student who has to study for a test. Because I wasn't anything other than a runner, I performed better than I have all year- or ever.
When I called my dad after we got back from Portugal and told him how we spent our days, he started going on about how the ancient Greeks were right when they said that athletes are actually lazy, because the only thing they do is train. I'm not sure where he got the whole ancient Greeks thing from, but it's true that we trained better because we did absolutely nothing else. Here, we all have normal lives with working, going to school, and doing things with people who aren't runners. Of course we trained better in Portugal without all of the other distractions. But being able to perform came from the atmosphere too. There were about fifteen of us in Portugal from the youth team accompanied by two coaches and one of the coaches wives- our "mom" while we were there. The other athletes in the youth team are driven. It's not "cool" not to want to train, or to stay up late eating tons of junk food, and not caring about how running goes. The fastest most dedicated people are the ones who are the most respected by the rest of us, and all of us want the same thing: to run faster.
Besides the youth team, Team Distance Runners had a group of 40 or so other athletes who were all in the same hotel as us. This is the group of runners that TDR is known for: the marathoners that are going to run in the European Championships in Barcelona this summer, the 40 runners with championship medals, and all of the athletes that have medals and championships coming soon. Everyone in the youth team wants to be one of them someday.
It's all those little things that added up to being able to perform in Portugal: resting well, eating well, spending time with the other athletes, and being able to focus on running and nothing else.

Occasionally when you run there's these moments where something clicks, and even when your legs are burning and your panting, you feel unstoppable. Then you're living in the moment, not thinking about how much longer you have to run, or about anything besides the way you feel in that split second and the way that your body's moving. Then you're flying over the track, and you never want it to end.
Those are performance moments, and they make all the moments when you can't peform- when you don't want to get out of bed and train, or when you skip the going out late and the chocolate cake- completely worth it. Portugal was full of performance moments. Maybe I'm greedy to ask, but I want more of them. I want performance moments in every race I have while I'm still here. I want to run personal records, and feel that flying unstoppable feeling. I'm trying so hard to hold on to the feeling of Portugal and to not forget what all those performance moments were like.

Performance moments or not, I know that the year I've had training with TDR has been one of the best things I've ever done. I don't need to run any certain times or win any races to know that- but still, performance would be nice.

So it's decided: I'm going to perform.

TDR in Portugal

Monday 26/04/10
4:30 p.m. ~ 45 minute run

We're in Portugal.

Tuesday 27/04/10
8:00 a.m. ~ 15 minutes walking on the beach, 40 minutes strength training by the bridge w/sand sprints, 15 minutes walking back on the beach.
4:30 p.m. ~ "Swimming pool Training:" strength training circuit in the playgournd, strength training lawn chairs, strength training swimming pool

Walking to the grocery store in Birkenstocks and shorts. Waking up to the sun in the window. Walking on the beach at 8.00 a.m. People watching us train. Buying fresh bread from the Portuguese lady at the bakery. Talking for 45 minutes before we took a shower. Practicing the word "schatje."

Wednesday 28/04/10
9.00 a.m. ~ 20 minute warm up run to the track, 15 minutes running and jumping exercises, 5x 30m build up sprints, 2x (3x800m) tempo, 5 minutes cooling down in the water, 20 minute cool down run
4.30 p.m. ~ 30 minute easy run

Thursday 29/04/10
8.00 a.m. ~ 10 minute warm up run, 30 minutes running/jumping drills, 5x 60% decline sprints, 8 minutes zone 2&3, 4 x 2 minutes zone 3 & 4, 2 x 4 minutes zone 3 & 4, 10 minute cool down run
11.30 a.m. ~ strength training; 3x abs, shoulders, lunges, pectorals, biking circuit

Friday 30/04/10
8:30 a.m. ~ 20 minute warm up run to the track, 20 minutes individual warm ups, 5 x 75m build up sprints, 7 x 300m tempo, cooling down in the water, 20 minute cool down run
4:30 p.m. ~ 45 minute run

Saturday 01/05/10
10:30 a.m. ~ one hour strength training: arms, abs, shoulders, squats, running in shallow water
4:30 p.m. ~ 10 minutes warming up, 5 minutes running and jumping drills, 3 x (5x60m hill sprints), 10 minutes cooling down

Talking to Shannon about running. Everyone falling in the swimming pool.

Sunday 02/05/10
Rest Day

Spain. Biking through the salt marsh. Having to be quiet so the flamingos don't fly away. Taking the ferry to Spain. Forced Titanic moments. The waiter who didn't speak English. "Mixed sandwiches" on white bread with nothing.

Monday 03/05/10
8:30 a.m. ~ 20 minutes warming up to the track, 30 minutes strength with medicine bals, 4x 60m build up sprints, 2 x (3x800m) tempos with speed increase, legs in cold water, 15 minute cool down run from the trac
4:30 p.m. ~ 25 minutes walking up the beach, 20 minutes strength training: abs, arms, jumping, 25 minutes walking back

Tuesday 04/05/10
8:00 a.m. ~ 45 minute run in zone 1&2
4:30 p.m. ~ 30 minutes strength training with lawn chairs: jumping, push-ups, abs, 25 minutes shallow pool strength training: skipping w/waterbottles, arm strength w/waterbottles, etc. 20 min deep pool strength training: breaststroke, underwater swimming, front crawl, deep water running.

Wednesday 05/05/10
7:30 a.m. ~ 15 minutes walking on the beach, 30 minutes running and jumping drills, sand sprinting, 15 minutes walking back on the beach, 30 minutes light strength and running drills in the sea
11:00 a.m. ~ strength training circuits x2
5:00 p.m. ~ 45 minutes super easy run

Being taken so seriously. Super easy runs. Fresh bread w/hazelnut spread. The freezing cold swimming pool. Laughing at the Portugese waiters. Being photographed in the freezing cold sea.

Thursday 06/05/10
9:00 a.m. ~ 20 minutes warm up run to the track, 20 minutes warm up exercises, stretching, skipping, jumping, arm pumping, 8x40 m build up sprints, 2 x (500m-300m-100m-300m-500m), 20 minutes cooling down back to the hotel
4:30 p.m. ~ 30 minute easy run

Long conversations. Race planning. This year was completely worth it.

Friday 07/05/10
8:00 a.m. ~ "De zout vlakte" 15 kilometer build up run
4:30 p.m. ~ Short warm up, 10 minutes drills, 7 x 100m downhill sprints, short cool down

Being caught up to by the best from TDR. Making it to the top of the biggest hill on my toes. Red flowers by hite houses. Faster, and faster, and faster.

Saturday 08/05/10
Rest

Sunday 09/05/10
9:00 a.m. ~ 10 minute warm up jog, 15 minutes running exercises, 5x60m speed-ups, 3 x 300m tempo, 2x 400m tempo, 500m tempo, 600m tempo, 3x100m full out, 10 minutes cooling down in the water, 10 minute cool down run.

The last workout in Portugal. Shaking hands. What's going to happen this season.


There's much, much more to come: The Passion, Perfection, Performance parts of Portugal.

Two Weeks Notice

To everyone who is dedicated enough to check my blog more often than every two weeks it will be a while before you get another post from me.
Tomorrow at 2:45 a.m. I'm leaving Akersloot for two weeks of training in: Portugal.
Hopefully I'll be able to catch up on everything that happens when I get back...
Wish me luck!

A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words (not that I believe that)

Texel

5:30 p.m. with the bus to Alkmaar. 6:20 p.m. with the train from track number 3 to Den Helder. 7:12 p.m. with the bus from Den Helder central station to the boat. 7:30 p.m. with the boat to Texel. 8:00 p.m. with the boat from Den Hoorn to De Cocksdorp. 8:58 p.m. by Antea's house (the Swiss girl, remember?).
I'd planned everything out so perfectly, written it down, bought a bus card, and packed everything Friday morning so that I would have time to go to school, run, and then go right to the bus. The bus riding went well. Then I got to the train station in Alkmaar. It turned out that the earlier train to Den Helder was delayed, so it was still standing on the track when I got there. I figured I could just as well take that train as the later one so I got on. Oddly enough there weren't that many people on the train- actually, there weren't any people on the train, but I figured that I was just early. When the doors closed and there still weren't any people on the train I started to get the feeling that something wasn't right, but the doors wouldn't open when I pressed the "door open" buttons. All of a sudden the train started moving, but in the opposite direction that it was supposed to, and not very fast at all. When it stopped completely again after about thirty seconds I started to panic a little, especially since there definitely wasn't anyone else on the train. It became obvious that I wasn't on a train heading for Den Helder, but on a train with locked doors that had just parked.
Whenever I'm in a scary situation I always make a list off the worst possible things that can happen. Number one: I wasn't going to die. Whew. Number two: I probably also was not going to get seriously injured or actually hurt at all. Number three: I might have to stay on the train until the next time it rode, and who knew how long that was going to be. Usually when I go through all of the worst possible scenarios I end up realizing that the situation I'm in isn't all that bad. This time it still felt pretty bad.
Since I couldn't think of anything else to do I pressed the "door open" button about a million more times. Then I considered pulling the emergency stop break but figured that probably wouldn't work either. I also seriously considered calling Milja, but thought that I should probably first check and see if I could find someone who would let me off of the train. Plus, I do have a little bit of pride, and I wasn't really looking forward to making a phone call telling her that I'd gotten myself stuck in a parked train. Once it was extremely obvious that I wasn't going to be able to get the doors open, I started walking super fast through the train. I was so relieved when I ran into another guy who seemed to have the same problem as me. He didn't seem all that relieved to see me though. I'm guessing he was thinking that not only was he stupid enough to get himself stuck on a parked train, but he also had to be stuck on the parked train with a foreigner. At that point it didn't really matter to me that the other guy was less then friendly because I was just happy not to be stuck on the train alone.
Together we speed walked through the train and after a few minutes were lucky enough to run into the conductor. This whole time I'd been completely wound up and scared: my heart was pounding a million miles a minute in my chest, and my face had gotten all hot and red. I was so happy to see the conductor: he was my knight in shining armour. We followed him to the cab of the train where we had to climb this ladder to get down on the train tracks and then run across the rest of the tracks to the other side and walk back to the train station. I was so happy to be out of the train that it didn't even bother me that the other guy who had been stuck in the train wouldn't talk to me for the entire walk back to the train station.
It felt like the whole being stuck on the train thing had lasted for hours, but in reality it had only been fifteen minutes or so, so I still made it back to the train station in time to get on the train from 6:20 that I was supposed to have in the first place. I was still a little bit shaken up, so the entire way I was completely stressed out and couldn't relax. Then it turned out that our train was delayed too, so once we got to the train station everyone had to sprint to the bus that was going to take us to the boat. Luckily we made it.
Almost right after I'd gotten on the boat I recognized Antea's host sister and her boyfriend who I'd met one other time before. I went over to them all happy that I'd found someone I knew and told them that I was going to visit Antea for the weekend.
"Oh, really?" says her sister. "Fun. How are you getting to our house though?"
"Oh, with the bus," I said. "Aren't you guys taking the bus?"
"Um..." says her boyfriend. "There is no bus from Den Hoorn to De Cocksdorp on Friday night."
"What?"
It turns out that the bus only drives durning the summer and over the weekends. Obviously Antea didn't know that when she wrote out the directions for me. Normally I just would have been able to ride with Antea's host sister and her boyfriend, but they were staying in Den Hoorn at her boyfriend's grandma's house (I know, this is getting a little bit complicated- just try to stay with me) and De Cocksdorp is on the complete opposite end of the island. In the end we met Antea's neighbor on the boat too, and it turned out she was going home so I rode with her back to Antea's house.
It wasn't until I had made it all the way to Antea's house in De Cocksdorp that I could actually breathe calmly again. Ugh, traveling is so stressful. When I got there Antea was still at the restaurant where she works, but I had known that ahead of time. I sat with her host brother for a little while and watched t.v. and when her host dad came home a little bit later he showed me some of the yard and the Friesian horses that they have for buggy pulling. They were these huge black horses (not as huge as the Budweiser horses, but they're kind of the same build) with perfect shiny coats and this proud walk.
Once Antea came back from work we spent some time sitting and drinking tea with her host family. Then we went and laid in bed upstairs and talked. Talking to her is so nice because we can talk about everything good and bad and we understand completely where the other person's coming from. We spent the whole weekend talking about everything that we love about the Netherlands and everything that we're going to miss so much. The only things we could think of that we wouldn't miss were the wind and the rain.
We set the alarm for 9:00 Saturday morning because I had to leave again on Saturday afternoon and we didn't want to spend the entire day sleeping. Spring is finally starting to kick in here so when we woke up there was sun shining through the curtains and birds singing. We ate breakfast in their dining room which was half surrounded by windows and then found a bike for me to use from the garage.

Texel is one of the five "Waddeneilanden" from the Netherlands. The Waddeneilanden are north of the Netherlands and Texel is the biggest of the five. It's the biggest, but it's definitely not big. It's 20km long and about 8km wide with only 14,000 or so people that live there. Apparently it's a huge tourist destination for people from the Netherlands, Germany, and lots of other places in Europe. Since it's and island, it's not as cloudy there as it usually is in the rest of the country and everything is surrounded by the sea.
Whenever anyone hears that Antea lives in Texel they always say how sorry they feel for her being an exchange student and being "stuck" in Texel. But Antea absolutely loves it and I understand why. Living there maybe makes it harder to see the rest of the Netherlands but she's happy with it.

Since I'm going back to Texel over two weeks with a group from AFS, Antea didn't want to show me everything that we're going to see then. Instead we spent all of Saturday near De Cocksdorp. First, in the morning, we biked to the lighthouse which is on the end of the island, and climbed to the top of it. We spent some time walking on the beach there, taking pictures, and sitting in the sun. Then we biked a little bit further down the beach until we got to the restuarant where she works and ate lunch and sat in the sun for a long time. After we had eaten we biked back to De Cocksdorp, walked through the street, ate ice cream, and sat in the sun some more. In the afternoon we spent some time with her host family and at 4:00 I had to take the bus back to the other side of the island again. While we were biking around, walking on the beach, and sitting in the sun on Saturday, we talked some more about everything. Our list of things we're going to miss here kept getting longer and longer.
Everything was so beautiful on the island, and biking there with the lighthouse and the sea all around with the sun shining and the wind on our backs I had another one of those Europy moments. Sometimes I still can't believe the things I get to do here. I never could have begun to imagine them before I came and even now some moments don't feel real. It's like I'm watching a movie with someone who keeps experiencing these incredible things, but I'm lucky enough that it's my life.
The trip back to Akersloot went more smoothly than the trip to Texel. There was a little bit of an inconvenience because something was wrong with the trains and everyone ended up having to take buses back to Alkmaar, which took way longer than it would have otherwise. Still, I didn't have any terrified moments and Peter came and picked me up in a city before Alkmaar saving me half an hour or so on the train.

Sunday was another day for running practice, and even though the sun was still shining and the birds were still chirping it turned out not to be a very successful training.
I watched the Rotterdam marathon for a while in the afternoon because TDR had three guys and a girl competing to qualify for the European Championships in Barcelona this summer. Of course the stupid t.v. station only showed the very first runners come in and then they switched to soccer so I didn't get to see TDR's runners finish. They did qualify though.
In the afternoon we went to the beach with Misha (the puppy) and to Egmond to buy Joakim a birthday present. The first thing we saw when we stepped onto the beach was this huge lady wearing a swimsuit and standing in the sea. I know I said that it's starting to be spring weather here, but it's not that warm yet. I would say it was about 50 degrees outside on Sunday with a strong wind. Everyone was already staring at her because she was absolutely crazy to be swimming, but then she got even crazier. She came out of the water and completely stripped off her swimsuit. Everything, completely exposed. All of the families with their kids and their dogs were all staring. As far as Sunday goes this was probably the most exciting event that happened. Of course I reacted completely innappropriately and started laughing so hard I couldn't stand up straight.

That's the latest update from the Netherlands. From beautiful island to naked ladie, I guess we have it all here.

Goodbye

I hate saying goodbye. It's not really harder to guess where I get that from, since anyone who has ever had to say goodbye to my dad can clearly see that he's not a big fan of goodbye's either. I think I've gotten a little bit better here, because the goodbyes are always extremely long and drawn out. You say goodbye to someone and kiss them three times, then you talk for a while longer, say goodbye again, hug, and after this has been repeated a few times it's finally over. Still, I'm no pro.

Luckily I didn't have to say goodbye to Johanna right away on Monday. Her flight didn't leave until 1:20 in the afternoon, and first I had a 5 kilometer race. Milja, Johanna, Anita, Isabel, and Peter all came to watch. On Sunday night I had a hyper hour or so where I got really nervous to race on Monday. It wasn't a big important race or anything, but I hadn't done a race for a while, and I wanted to see an improvement in my times. Monday morning I was a little bit calmer than I had been on Sunday night and once I had all my clothes together and I'd jogged around a little bit I was pretty much ready to go.
In the end the race went fairly well. I'd wanted to run the 5 kilometers in 21 minutes, and I ended up running it in 21:31 or so, but I wasn't too disappointed. When you race sometimes you have the feeling that it didn't go very well, and sometimes you have the feeling that it did go well. On Monday I had the feeling that I'd raced well, so I was happy. Before I came here I would never have been able to run 5 kilometers that fast. At that same pace I would have had a 4kilometer personal record, so that is definitely something to be happy about. Portugal, here I come! Only two weeks to go.

After I got done racing Milja and Peter's taxi services both got to work. Milja went with Johanna to Schipol right away while I changed my clothes, cooled down, and stretched. Then Peter and I came afterwards. We still had enough time to drink something at the airport, but we all had that kind of melancholy-there's-a-goodbye-coming feeling, so we didn't sit for too long. We brought Johanna to the security gate, and then waited until we couldn't see her anymore to go.

Then she was gone...
I'm so happy that Johanna got to come. I'm happy that I got to show her everything here, that she ate Easter brunch with us and got meet my family here, and that she was there to watch me run on Sunday. Hopefully it won't be so long before I get to see her again.

Showing Off

After seven (almost eight) months of living here, I finally got to show my life off to someone. I can blog about everything I do, write e-mails to my family, and tell my friends about it on skype, but it's not the same. Until you've been here you don't really understand what it's like. Eating stroopwaffels while you're soaking in the sun in Amsterdam, sitting around the table with the family, watching fields full of windmills and lambs going by, being blown away by the super strong wind- these are only things that you can actually feel if you're here.

This weekend was show off weekend: I showed off my Dutch, I showed of the Netherlands, and I showed off my host family to Johanna. The more important thing is that I got to spend time with her, which I don't get to do very often. We always manage to jump right in where we left off when we see each other again- I guess that's what happens when you've known someone so long. Plus, over the weekend I got to cross a few things off of my "To Do in Holland" list.

On Thursday I woke up incredibly nauseous, with a horrible cold and a splitting headache. Obviously I couldn't go to school feeling like that. Instead I went for a run, cleaned my room and got ready for Johanna to come in the afternoon. After I ran I spent a lot of time sitting around and waiting. When her plane landed we had to stand for a long time and watch her on the other side of the glass while she waited for her suitcase. She did finally get to come out with it and we ran into each others arms (queu heart wrenching music). Johanna had plenty of time to study the Dutch landscape on our way to Akersloot because we got stuck in the last-day-of-work-before-Easter traffic jam. When we got back we brought Johanna with us to the grocery store (I have this weird love of going to the grocery store here, so why wouldn't she?) and then home for dinner. The weather was nice so we thought that it would be a good experience to bring Misha (the new puppy) to the beach with us for an evening walk. We made it about ten steps along the beach before we decided that it was way too windy and cold to walk on the beach. Instead we went and sat in the restaurant for a while, then braved the wind again on our way to the car.

Friday morning I woke up bright and early and went for a run. For breakfast I got to show off one of the finest Dutch delicacies- hagelslag. Hagelslag is amazing. You know the sprinkles in America that are these dried up pieces of sugar with color on them? Hagelslag looks like sprinkles, but it's complete chocolate. And you're allowed to eat it on your bread. Whenever you want. So we ate hagelslag on our bread, and then we walked to the bus station that would take us to the train station that would take us to Amsterdam. On our way to the bus stop we walked behind what we thought was a sweet old lady. She stayed sweet for a while, but then all of a sudden she turned angry. The whole time Johanna and I were speaking Swedish to each other in the bus stop and Johanna was leaning against the side of that glass wall that is always around a bus stop. All of a sudden she turned to us all angrily and said, "Kijkuit! (watch out). That was a little strange, but we didn't really think that much of it. Then, once we got on the bus she sat in front with one of her friends and the two of us sat in the back. The "sweet old lady" kept turning around and yelling at us in Dutch to be quiet, and talking super loudly to her other old lady friend about how we were talking way too loud. I'm not sure what it was about our Swedish speaking that made the old lady so upset, but we were using completely normal inside voices to talk to each other. Luckily we got away from the angry lady as soon as we got on the train and the rest of the trip to Amsterdam was fairly uneventful.

On Thursday night we had made all sorts of plans for what we wanted to do in Amsterdam and we had finally decided on going to the Madame Tusseaud or the Anne Frank house. But on Friday morning when we looked online, it turned out that tickets for the Anne Frank house were completely sold out and the Madame Tusseaud website wouldn't work at all so we couldn't order tickets. Of course without tickets we would have had to wait in line all day. Instead, when we got to Amsterdam we took a scenic route to the Anne Frank house so that Johanna could at least say she'd seen the outside of it. Then we walked back to the centrum of Amsterdam and I decided we should try to find the Red Light District so Johanna could see what it was like. The problem with finding the Red Light District is that it's a little awkward to go up to someone and ask where it is, so after wondering around for an hour or so I gave up on trying to find it. We did find lots of coffee shops, and sex stores that gave a small impression of one of Amsterdam's claims to fame.

Since we couldn't get into the Anne Frank house and we couldn't find the Red Light District, we decided to give up on being tourists, find something to eat, and shop. We ate sandwiches on ciabatta bread and then had enough energy back to shop for the entire rest of the afternoon. Around 5:00 or so we started to drag again, but we still wanted to shop a little more before we went back. Neither of us was really hungry, but we figured that we could buy something really little in a cafe and then sit there for a while. Our first mistake was that we picked a cafe in the middle of the main shopping street with a menu in English. This is never a good sign when it comes to prices. When we walked in we had to wait forever before someone finally came to take our order and then the girl behind the counter was not a nice person. Johanna and I had decided that we were going to get a tiny bowl of cheap vanilla ice cream and share it, and then just drink water. When I tried to tell this to the waitress she got all crabby and told me that they didn't have vanilla ice cream. She also didn't seem able to explain why they didn't have any vanilla ice cream when it said that they had vanilla ice cream on the menu. Usually I'm a pretty assertive person, but my Dutch wasn't doing very well since I'd spent the entire day speaking Swedish with Johanna. I was so intimidated by the angry girl that I gave up and order the super expensive and super tiny container of Ben and Jerry's for 3,50 euros. Since we were going to eat it with the two of us I asked for two spoons to go with it. Those tiny containers of Ben and Jerry's all have that wooden stick in there that your supposed to use to eat it. The cashier pointed this out to me, but then I pointed out that there were two of us. "Fine," she said. "But you can only have one spoon and you have to bring it back." Really we should have walked out of the cafe at this point, but both of us were exhausted and just wanted to sit down. Plus we were thirsty and we wanted water. I ordered two glasses of water. What was our total? Nine euros. The ice cream was 3,50. Two glasses of water was 5,50. We didn't even have ice in our water!

Once I had stopped fuming about how incredibly horrible the service was and how much we had paid for our water, we ate the ice cream (or I tried to eat my ice cream with that stupid stick that came with it) and had a little bit more energy to shop for a few more hours.

With the train and Taxi Milja we were back in Akersloot by 8:00. We ate, changed clothes, put on make-up, and at 10:00 left for one of my friends houses in another town. We went to the usual bar with four of my friends from school. It's hard enough being in a group wtih people who have three different native languages, but being in a dark crowded bar makes it much harder to. My friends did a good job speaking mostly English though and I think Johanna felt welcome. She did have the same look on her face that I probably had the first time I went out to a bar. It's the "Am I Really Standing in a Bar With a Drink in My Hand" look. We didn't stay out that late though, because we both wanted to be able to get up the next morning and have another full day.

We got up at 8:30 or so on Saturday, both took showers, ate a quick breakfast, and then left with Milja for the Keukenhof. The Keukenhof is a famous tulip garden in the Netherlands. People come from all over the world to see the tulips there in the spring. Picture all of these beautiuful green gardens with tons of tourists swarming everywhere and taking a million pictures. My dad would have had a panic attack after about two minutes. Unfortunately, Johanna came a little bit early for the tulips, so there were hardly any tulips outside. There was an inside nursery that was full of tulips though, and walking outside was still pretty because everything was so green and fresh. Milja and I decided that we have to go back, but we couldn't figure out a time when we'd be able to go before it closes. In the end we figured that it would have to be on another day when I was as sick as I was on Thursday. Apparently the Keukenhof has a theme for the whole park every year. This year the theme is Russia, so there were displays with "Russian" things all over the place. Right when you walked in there was a motorcycle with a side wagon, in one of the greenhouses there were planets hanging up (which a British tourist managed to knock down), and another greenhouse was the ballet house. We spent the whole morning at the Keukenhof fighting all of the other tourists for a good place to take a picture, and smelling the flowers.

I'd been feeling guilty about Saturday afternoon because I knew I had to go to running practice and leave Johanna. On our way back from the Keukenhof I realized it was probably okay that I had to leave, because Johanna could keep her eyes open for about thirty seconds at a time before they would shut again and she'd nod off. This reminded me of how exhausting it really is to travel and to constantly be surrounded by a language you don't understand. When I went to the training I left Johanna in bed with a book and orders to take a nap. In the end she didn't sleep very long, because instead her and Milja went to the Akersloot mill and to a farm with lambs. The mill was in the plans the whole time and I had been there a few weeks ago with Oma and Opa, so I wasn't missing anything new. The lambs are a sore subject though- petting lambs is on my list of things to do and now, while I still haven't done it, Johanna has. I'll be a good friend though and be happy for her that she got to experience something new.

While Milja and Johanna were frolicking with the lambs I spent two hours training (one hour of which was in the pouring rain, and another hour of which was in the shining sun). After the training the whole team listened to a presentation on eating right. I'd been looking forward to this presentation since I first got here, because it seems like with how much my training has changed since I've come here that my eating habits should change a little bit too. Of course, they have changed since I'm in a new country with new food, but I've felt a little bit lost when it comes to what I really should be eating; what times, how much, etc. The bottom line turned out to be fairly obvious- don't eat too much fat; eat lots of grains, different fruits and vegetables, egg whites, and lean meat. We'll see what we can do with that...

After the presentation I was whisked away without even taking a shower (I did my best with the bathroom sink and some perfume) and we drove to the train station. We took the train to Amsterdam and then the metro to the Theater Carre. Before Johanna came, we were planning what we were going to do with her and I kept saying that I wanted to go to a performance of some sort in Amsterdam- a singer, or a band, or something. We couldn't find anything good while Johanna was here, so eventually I gave up on that idea. On the Friday after Johanna got here Milja found a street dance group called Blaze in the newspaper. Blaze is an international street dance group that was began in England and just happened to be on tour in Amsterdam while Johanna was here. How perfect is that? So Milja brought Johanna, Taiana, one of Taiana's friends, and me to see Blaze. The performance was an hour and a half and it felt like only thirty minutes. Watching them dance was completely absorbing. Some of the things they did seemed physically impossible and the choreography was flawless. If it wasn't for the fact that all the girls in the group had to wear these really ugly pants with long crotches (and the fact that I can't dance at all), I would start trying to be a professional street dancer right now.

Instead of taking the metro back to the central station after the performance we walked; and we decided to walk through the Red Light District since Johanna and I hadn't been able to find it while we were in Amsterdam. It wasn't all that late, 10:00 or so, which isn't late enough for it to be unsafe yet. Still, I think we were all a little bit shocked when we got there. The street was incredibly crowded not only with tourists, but also with groups of men standing outside of the windows trying to decide which girl they wanted to go in to. The girls themselves were all wearing white lingerie and standing under blue lights which made them seem way more promiscous and exposed. To give it a little bit more of a "real" feel, the smell of pot was everywhere. Milja turned to Johanna right away and tried to convince her that not all of Amsterdam is like the Red Light District. We made it completely unscathed and a little less naive back to the train station.

On Easter Sunday we finally had time to sleep in. Once we were dressed and ready we helped a little with getting the table ready for everyone who was coming over for Easter Brunch. We were in charge of bread, hagelslag, meat, orange juice, and coffee. Inge brought tulband, which is white bunt cake. Anita made scrambled eggs with potatoes and feta cheese. Eric and Marja brought salmon and tuna salads, plus dessert which was fruit with a sort of sweet yogurt. Peter brought chocolate Easter eggs which- like any chocolate- have turned out to be a huge weakness for me. We introduced Johanna to everyone and tried to keep her a little updated on the conversation. It was hard though, because the conversation switched to something else about every two minutes, someone was always talking about something different, and people are always laughing about something that isn't funny when you explain it all over again.

We sat by the Easter brunch for three hours. I did my very best not to eat too much because I knew I had to race the next day, but it was hard. I'm one of those people who isn't very good at not eating after I'm full. If there's food sitting in front of my nose it takes a huge amount of will power and concentration not to eat it. And there was a lot of food sitting in front of my nose. As usual though, it was nice to sit with the entire family and have a big meal.

Everyone left in the middle of the afternoon and then Peter, Milja, Johanna, and I got in the car again and drove to Vollendam- a typical touristic Dutch town. Vollendam is on the sea and has a huge fishing industry plus a huge tourist industry. There's a ton of stores with Dutch souveniers, restaurants selling fish, ice cream shops, and a few stores where you can dress up in typical Dutch clothing and have your picture taking.

I promised Milja I wouldn't complain about this in my blog, so I'm going to be objective and tell this story just the way it happened:

We walk by one of these stores where you can dress up and have your picture taken and Milja says, "Come on, you and Johanna have to do this." I protest a little bit but figure it can't be that bad, so we go in the store with her. Once I walk into the store I start protesting a lot. This is because the clothes that you have to put on and have your picture taken in are absolutely hideous. They aren't okay, they aren't just a little bit ugly: they're absolutely hideous. (That doesn't count as complaining either, that's just stating the facts) Anyway, once we were inside I start protesting big time. After about five minutes of arguing with Milja I realize I could probably ask Johanna what she wants to do, or at least fill her in on what Milja wants us to do. Once she realizes that what she wants is for us to put the horrible clothes on and have our picture taken she shakes her head too and says no way. I'm finally getting to the point where I think I've won the argument and we can go back outside in the fresh air when Milja comes with her winning argument. "I'm only asking this one thing from you," she says. "You've been living in my house for seventh months, and I've taken such good care of you. Do this for me."

The people who work in the store got us dressed in layers and layers of wool clothes. The finishing touch was a white lacy cap and a huge pair of wooden clogs. Then we stood in front of painted backdrop of a green house with a bouquet each of fake tulips. The people who worked at the store took pictures and Milja took pictures. Now it's done; I've worn traditional Dutch clothing and I have a picture to remember it by. Plus it does feel good that I'm not indebted to Milja anymore for taking such good care of me. Who knew you could repay seven months in fifteen minutes and some wooden clogs?

We took a long way back from Vollendam and drove past the sea and through some more tiny Dutch towns. Johanna and I decided that at some point in our lives we're going to buy a huge Dutch house that looks out over the sea with a canal in the backyard. Then we're going to eat chocolate, cookies, and ice cream all day and get gloriously fat. We're still working out a few kinks in our plan, but in the meantime could we have a better dream?

On Sunday evening we took care of some last minute things for Johanna's flight home the next day and my coming race. We watched a movie and ate soup with left over bread from the Easter brunch. Her last night with us was a quiet one.

The blog from Monday is coming soon, I promise. First though I have another running practice to bike too, and a few more days of school- we'll see when I can fit the rest of the blog in. I'm a busy girl, you know...